*Cues Bound by Ari Lennox as the clock goes from 11:59 p.m. to 12 a.m.*
It's the 20th year. Before the day ended, I wanted to write a reflection about this. No longer am I in the teens, but beginning a new decade filled with new dreams, accomplishing new goals, and experiencing everything the world has to offer me.
The few days leading up to this moment have been very emotional, ask my friends. Maybe I did shed a few tears a few days before, but the day of, I haven't shed any tears...yet.
For some reason, I find the age so odd. In general, I find age to be odd in general, but this one was a bit scary. For the past couple of birthdays I've been a little emotional about my birthday. This one was no exception to the rule.
The fact that I'm in the 20's now is an accomplishment. Looking back on everything I've done, I've accomplished a lot. In my teens I travelled the world, I self-published a book, became Editor-in-Chief of a blogging community, spoke to so many amazing people, and so much more.
What scares me is the fact that I'm getting older, as though I have a persona to uphold for people my age and adults now. Not that I didn't before, but I'm one step closer to soon being out in the world of adulthood. It all scares me and makes me want to run in the opposite direction. Even when I told my dad this, the idea that it's as though I have to do everything without my parents now because that's how it seems like everything is supposed to be. He comforted me by telling me what I've already heard before about how everyone has to go through this, which I sighed harder at, but he also mentioned how him and my mom would be there through it all, which eased my nerves a little more.
Although at around 4:13 p.m. EST and 1:13 p.m. (or maybe it was 1:15) PST I officially turned 20, and I was in class at the time, the whole day wasn't really filled with nerves, but rather excitement.
My mood was brighter than I expected, the love and support I received raised those feelings, and all around I felt better than I thought I would on this day.
Everything felt good, and for some reason, I have a good feeling about this year. I don't know what about it makes it that way, but it just feels right.
So here's to being in my 20's and experiencing what the world has in store for me. I'm so grateful to have been able to wake up and see a new day, something that I'd think about a lot. There's so much I want to accomplish, but I want to remember going into my 20's to be attentive, patient, and look for the good in things as best as possible.
Thank you to the year 19 and welcome to a new year around the sun and so many more (cheesy, right?).
Syd.
